Feeling a little Gay

When you read, or doing anything for that matter, you fall back on your own experiences as a frame of reference. While reading "A House Made of Dawn" I had noticed a few things that had piqued my interest. I didn't feel like bringing them up in class though because as a part of a minority you do not want to seem like the person that is harping on issues. When the issue of homosexuality came up in class, yet again, I failed to bring up my views on the matter. There was some observations that I had with my reading that I thought fell in line with the issue that was brought up durring class.
The first thing that jumped out at me was the sex scene between Abel and Angela. The scene is written in Momaday's usual descriptive manner. This makes the issue of the language regarding Abel even more interesting. The way the he views here is almost clinical. On page 57 his description is one that puts me in mind of the way that one would describe a horse rather than someone who you are about to inter into sexual contact with. This weird tension comes back with the sex scene between Abel and Milly. The part that jumped out at me was the questioning after the act. He asks her "Did you like it Milly? It was good again, wasn't it, Milly?" He has to ask, he has to be reassured of his sexual prowess. None of this is that unusual or weird for a heterosexual man.
The issues that really makes me question Abel is the interaction with the White Man. He kills him, in a rather brutal manner. There is a odd moment after Abel first attacks the albino where he reaches for him " Abel heard the strange excitement of the white man's breath, and the quick, uneven blowing in his ear, and felt the blue shivering lips upon him, felt even the scales of the lips and the hot slippery point of the tongue." What was the White Man trying to do? Seems pretty homoerotic, no?
I do not think that Abel is "gay". I do however think that there is some deep questions that he has to answer for himself. Maybe he is scared of his own sexuality. Maybe he is bisexual, maybe certain aspects the male physique are erotic for him. It does not really matter. What matters is that Abel is insecure, he is insecure and scared. So scared that he as to take extreme measures to distance himself from them, even going as far as killing a person. There are many aspects of himself that he does not understand. Instead of trying to answer some of these question for himself he turns that mystery into fear and self loathing, aiming the anger inwards in increasing self destructive behavior that reflects outwards onto the people that try and help him.